I'm Still Going

Yes, even though I'm still extremely upset, I am still planning to go to the wedding. Kimberly and I had a very nice conversation the following day after the phone call with her and Zach and seemed to straighten a lot of things out. However, you can never really tell with her. She is the queen of blowing smoke up people's asses so she doesn't have to face the music. She told me she didn't know what Zach was going to say on the phone call. I told her that I had warned her against blaming me for everything and when that's exactly what he did, I put a stop to it. If this guy doesn't apologize to me, it speaks volumes of the kind of man he is. He seems to act just like his parents. They feel they are always justified to treat people like crap. They've done nothing but push me, bully me, threaten me and harass me through this whole process. I feel very good about how I've handled myself. I haven't let them goad me into misbehavior. Every nasty phone call and e-mail, I've basically ignored and tried to act as business-like as possible. Now, the next hurdle I'm faced with is having Zach's mother, sister and some other family members and friends at my house for the shower. I really wish I had never agreed to have it in my home. I also am reluctant now to have the aufruf that I have been trying to plan. I don't feel good about this marriage. If this guy treats me like a piece of garbage, he will treat my daughter that way, too, at some point in the future. He already has, when he broke up with her just over a year ago. But, she was willing to forgive him. That means, I have to, as well. I still feel that if they push me too far, I'll pop and just tell them I'm done and will no longer be part of the wedding. This is a very complex situation, made complex by Zach and his parents.