The Wedding that Came and Went

It's been awhile since I checked in. Obviously, Kimberly's wedding is but a mere memory. Let's just say that I did not emerge as one of Zach's mother's best friends. It's surprising, though, how nice her friends and family were to me, including her mother and brothers. Mimi and Elliot are just not nice people. They treated me like crap the whole weekend of Kimberly's wedding and didn't even talk to me. I sat next to Elliot at the Shabbat luncheon on Saturday and tried to engage him in conversation but it didn't last long. Then, at the wedding, they did not speak to me at all. Yup, not at all! In fact, she was an utter bitch to me. The night before the wedding, it was Robbie, Kimberly, me and Kimberly's friend Sarah in a hotel room. I had brought a couple of surprises for Kimberly, including a book I made from pictures of her bridal shower. Nothing. She was like nothing to me that night and the whole wedding. No connection whatsoever. The wedding actually went very smoothly. A couple of things that ticked me off -- the flowers I ordered for Zach, his brothers and his father were never touched...left like garbage in a box. Zach never put that damn flower on! And, then, the stupid Jewish music. I had gotten assurances from Kimberly and Zach that the music would last a half hour. It lasted two hours!! My guests were so bored by it that they all ended up going outside until it stopped! Even all these months later, it all pisses me off to no end. And, since then, it's been all about Zach's family. I've seen Kimberly exactly twice since August. She and Zach came back from a more than 2 week honeymoon in Israel, London and Ireland and she still hasn't called me. We had a short google chat last week. I had wanted to get together finally for Chanukah and she suggested next Monday, Marin Luther King Day. I really can't do it that day. I haven't heard from her and I don't plan on contacting her. I'm so done with being treated like shit! Then, today, I find out that my son, Robbie, got a $3,000 refund check from school as reimbursement from the NJ STARS program for the first semeseter and he neglected to tell me and then blew all the money!! I've had to bail him out of financial jams over the last few months, too. I feel like I must have a "Crap on Lynne" sign on me. I don't know what I did to deserve this treatment but it must have been pretty bad. I get crapped on by my brother who has told me his effort for his mother is commensurate with the amount of money he'll get when he dies. My kids treat me like I don't exist. My boss sucks the life out of me and doesn't appreciate a damn thing. But, I am alive and for the time that I have left on earth I'm going to try to have fun, enjoy life and surround myself with people who actually care about me!